To know me, is to know that I am a really positive human being. I am the resident friend cheerleader and pep-talker and happiness guru.
I would say, that I am like this 90% of the time. No sense in being grumpy, when there is so much rad in the world. Right? Well, I am human.
But the 10%. Ugh. Recently I donated my time to help photograph families affected by Autism. I have been doing this for years, but recently learned of an organization that has a 501c3 dedicated to this mission.
We all came together and photographed kids and had a blast......people are now posting the final images and my heart sank. And that evil thing "I am not good enough" came through loud and clear. I don't measure up. There are TOO many amazing artists around me (literally) and I am just one of the "dime" a dozen.
Then, to rub salt in the wound one of the most talented people I know (and have been following for a long time) I learned is my neighbor. I feel like printing my client list and handing it right over to her. I mean, why bother?
*Insert white flag here.* Then I remembered that I can't just "quit" I just made a promise to my family.
Hello, YOU there. I am speaking to you. Those of you who are trying to make this "dream" thing work in a sea others doing the same. It's really hard. It's even harder when you are trying to do this, and be a full time parent and spouse. I am the "Mom Pig from SING."
I get it. I so get it.
This is what I just did. I took a deep breath. Took out my camera and started to shoot. There's always going to be someone better. There is always going to be someone who has what you want and they seem to get it quicker. There will always be moments of self doubt. Don't let it steal your joy.
Follow your tribe. Follow your art. And don't bend on it.
The reason you are not "them" is becuase you are, you. And no one, NO ONE has that power except you.